Srimathe Rangaramanuja Mahadesikaya Namaha
Srimathe Sri Varaha Mahadesikaya Namaha
Sri Velukkudi Krishnan Swamy Thiruvadigaley Sharanam
Sri:

Questioner: Swamy, I tried a lot but couldn’t change myself.
SriVaishnavite: It’s called SwabhAvam.

Sriman Narayana periodically checks if the person has mend his ways became good and got BhAghavatha Thiruvadi Sambandham.

It’s the most natural Supreme Intelligence which checks your pattern and takes appropriate decision.

It’s not new, Hiranyakashipu was given chance. Ravana was given chance. Kakasuran was given chance, Durvasa was given chance.

Questioner; But I keep thinking of Vishnu always.

SriVaishnavite: It’s good starting point. SmaraNa bhakthi but unfortunately that would not be enough.

For instance, Thirukkachi Nambigal who did hand fan service to God asked for Moksham.

God denied.
Nambigal then reminded “Veesinen” (Hand Fan)
God: Veesineer Pesinom

You flapped I talked.

Unless you get BhAghabatha Sampandham Moksham is difficult.

So the crux is, self bhakthi might have some ego mixed with it which Perumal may not like.

It happened to GopikA sthrees as well.

So self bhakthi should lead to a Sath Sangam which leads to easy Moksham.

By the way I have one doubt Gopika Sthrees were technically together in Sath Sangam then why Krishna Vanished?

Te reason I think, after self submission one should forget self. The moment self is reminded duality steps in. Sri Krishna then takes us for a ride.

Narayana Narayana

Sri Velukkudi Krishnan Swamy Thiruvadigaley Sharanam

Dasanudasan