Swamiji please help me,even though ï ask strength from god and eat sathva food,the thamas and rajas and fear of future and fear of others perspective on me makes me weak and does not allow me to concentrate on paramathma and even though iam aware of the whole truth about Sri narayana and about life and death,i spent years listening to swami’s upanyasams but why is indhriyas,prakrithi,unknown pavams binding me,i want to be in the lotus feet of our Sri narayana and never born again and this body and its senses makes it difficult ï cannot get over it,please help,i don’t wanna give up and iiam frustrated against all this,i try andd try and fail,i have no more to try ,iam hopeless, ï want all his sotthu to be go to Sri narayana feet and see him happy but i fail to control my own indriyas ,i don’t wanna be in this life and death cycle