Namaskaram Amma
You have to make a complete surrender to Sri Krishna
The best example is Draupadi
Draupadi called for help holding her saree in one hand first – Krishna didn’t come
But later Draupadi called for help with both of hands off the saree – amazingly Krishna came instantaneously
What does this mean
Why did Krishna didn’t come first
And how did Krishna came instantaneously from thousands of kilometres away?
The answer to these questions is the solution for your scenario
Firstly what your facing now is not a problem it is an invitation from Krishna to surrender to him completely
Let’s take the first scenario
Draupadi called for help holding her saree in one hand first – Krishna didn’t come
Your exactly in the same scenario
Draupadi is still trying to help herself by holding the saree in one hand and asking for help, it is not complete surrender
She is trying to resist the harm done to her
She is still a doer
Krishna sees this and will do more harm to her until she surrenders completely
So Krishna in the form of your Husband is harming you to make you understand that no matter what you do you cannot receive his love
Let’s take the second scenario
But later Draupadi called for help with both of hands off the saree – amazingly Krishna came instantaneously
Now Draupadi made a complete surrender by releasing her hands off her saree without worrying about the consequences
Krishna saw this , his love was instantaneous for those who trust him and surrender to him completely
His help was instant
And how did he come instantaneously from far distance
See no matter
who you are
What your doing
What is your age
Whether your a theist or atheist
Whether you do Pooja or not
Whether you follow Gita or not
Whether you take Sattvic diet or not
Whether you get more angry or less anger
Whether you fight or love your family
Sri Krishna is always with everybody, everytime waiting for the moment of complete surrender and he will do whatever he wants to do to make you surrender – he even takes care of while your sleeping and waiting for that single event of Complete surrender
So don’t worry about doing just observe what is happening – don’t resist anything
spiritual thiruvaradhanai is spontaneous and effortless
Don’t try to do, just observe the doing of Sri Krishna
Your already liberated
Sit and relax in your sofa and observe the doing of Krishna
hope you got it
This is the least orthodox way of helping you
But it worked for adiyen
adiyen was also in the same scenario
It worked
adiyen is enjoying the love of Sri Krishna
No words can explain the ecstasy of being with him
adiyen can be without any harm even in hell as no matter where adiyen is going to be Sri Krishna is always going to be there with adiyen
Reach the state of no needing anything
adiyen
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